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Kay Rants Pondering on Process
Jul. 3rd, 2022 04:37 pmI am aware that I will freqUently catch myself going along with what I think others want, often this is something I don’t even notice until afterwards I’m uncomfortable or unhappy with what haas happened.
This means that if I know I have a big decision coming up I will avoid interacting with others about it. That lets me feel more confident that a decision is more true for me and less bent to fit what I think others want. That is helping me get a better idea of myself, and less regret in the future.
But it also gives me a feeling of hiding that I’m not thinking is good for me, and means I miss out on wisdom and support from my amazing community.
It also means that when I do express what’s going on people may feel like tHey missed something earlier.
I really appreciate my community, and don’t want folks feeling left out, so it may take some work and thought to figure out if this is something I want to build communication skills around this.
This means that if I know I have a big decision coming up I will avoid interacting with others about it. That lets me feel more confident that a decision is more true for me and less bent to fit what I think others want. That is helping me get a better idea of myself, and less regret in the future.
But it also gives me a feeling of hiding that I’m not thinking is good for me, and means I miss out on wisdom and support from my amazing community.
It also means that when I do express what’s going on people may feel like tHey missed something earlier.
I really appreciate my community, and don’t want folks feeling left out, so it may take some work and thought to figure out if this is something I want to build communication skills around this.